L.E.M. C. 14: Envy 4eva!

What it means to Affirm

————The sword of lightning Nanaki threw away disappeared into the empty sky.

“————————That was stupid……Nanaki……”

Nanaki knows that. But still Nanaki doesn’t……I do not want to kill Envy. After all, those tears were supposed to be for being separated from my family. Why must I be separated from my family again, why must I have these kind of emotions a second time. Even if it is not actually through blood, you are definitely Nanaki’s sister.

“This……cannot be……helped……Nanaki……”

If I can only choose one, my sister or my master, if I can only choose one. Then what does it mean to enforce my pride. This is suffering. Again, it is going to become this kind of world again. I should have been resolved, I should have affirmed it already. But despite that Nanaki is still lost.

“End it……this way……one curse will end……”

Is this the world that Nanaki affirmed? Is this Nanaki’s pride?
the path only nanaki can take
————No. That’s not it.
Nanaki is special
That’s right, can Nanaki be proud of this kind of result? Can Nanaki really accept this kind of thing? No, this is not fitting for Nanaki who is Mother’s daughter. There is no way it is okay for there to be a daughter that yields to this. This isn’t it, the world Nanaki seeked for is not something like this.

Remember the words from that day.

‘Become a person that can affirm the world.

Will I break my promise with Mother again? No I won’t.

Aren’t you one of the strong, Nanaki? Aren’t you stronger than everyone else? What have you obtained that strength for? Remember, Nanaki’s core. What is Nanaki’s pride, what does it mean to enforce that? Can the weakness of giving up because it can’t be helped in this situation be called strength? No.

Why does it have to be one, Master or sister, that is because Nanaki is weak. Nanaki was told to be strong, Nanaki vowed to become strong, despite that Nanaki still ran. Hating difficulty, hating pain, Nanaki has been chasing a convenient dream. That’s right, it is not so simple.

————How long will you be spoilt, wake up already.

Can Mother rest peacefully with this state of affairs? No, there is no way Mother won’t be worried about Nanaki having this kind of weakness. The pride Nanaki received from Mother, the strength, wasn’t everything Nanaki received for this day?

Aren’t you one of the strong, Nanaki.

Aren’t you a special human, Nanaki!!

Then prove it!!

Be it the curse be it the prophecy————Accept the entire world!!

“I……won’t kill you!!”

What it means to affirm the world, is not something like that!!
if you are strong
“————I don’t, Nanaki!! doesn’t want a world without Envy!!”
if you have pride
To be strong, to be proud, is something like this!!
then crush fate
No matter how much suffering awaits, no matter how many curses Nanaki has to bear, Nanaki will keep being proud of myself. Isn’t that being one of the strong? Isn’t that what it means to be proud? It was for that that Nanaki obtained this strength. It is for that Nanaki has learnt this pride.

Don’t run from suffering. Don’t run from difficulty. If you are strong, prove it. Accept it all and overcome it. That is Nanaki. That is Mother’s daughter, Nanaki. Running is not allowed.

What prophecy, what curse, what about them. Isn’t it fine, bring it all on. Nanaki will accept it, Nanaki will receive it. There is no meaning in advancing down a path without pride, there is no way Nanaki can reach Mother’s greatness that way. And also, do not forget the strength to make that one step.

After all————The world is beautiful.

To see the world, Nanaki must not forget Nanaki’s pride. Nanaki must not forget Nanaki’s strength. Nanaki will prove it now, that Nanaki is a special human. Nanaki will affirm it now, this world.

“Envy, let us meet again. If I can meet the you that I love again, I will cross swords with you any number of times.”
“……haha. ……that stupidity doesn’t seem like it would be cured even by death.”
“I just realised, but I think stupidity isn’t something to be thrown away like that.”

After all, I get to meet you again.

“Even if Silver and the rest lose, they will come again and again. Me included.”
“I will accept it.”
“Things important to Nanaki might be targeted.”
“I will protect them.”

Thanks to you I now know what is true strength.

“You have intention of breaking the curse?”
“I will shoulder it. All of it. Because Nanaki is strong.”
“Hahaha, stupid~”
“Yes, I am stupid. That’s why please hug me. I heard stupid kids are cute.”
“tahaha……seriously…..”
(T/N: ^not a typo)
Today, Nanaki became strong. So it should be fine to be praised.

“————come, Nanaki.”

Nanaki jumped towards that tattered body.

Ah, Mother. Nanaki thinks what Mother said really is correct. If Nanaki didn’t become strong, Nanaki wouldn’t be able to protect this warmth. Now it seems Nanaki will no longer doubt those words. This world might really be beautiful. After all————

————it is this warm.

intermission

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intermission

Nanaki is tired out.

At some point the sky’s colour had become deep blue. Ah, Moon-sama is beautiful today too. Good evening, I’m Nanaki. I’m sorry for being selfish, but shall we talk a little? What does Moon-sama think of the sun? Nanaki thinks it is very beautiful. Nanaki thinks people cannot live without its radiance.

Moon-sama was hidden by clouds.

It might be sulking because Nanaki kept praising the sun. Let’s apologise tomorrow night.

A lot happened today, Friend.

There was no reply from Friend. He is currently recovering the power he lost by blocking that one strike for Nanaki. Thank you for saving me. Rest at ease, Nanaki’s precious friend.

I see, that means tonight will be the first night Nanaki is alone in a very long while.

This is lonely. Nanaki is no good at being alone. It makes Nanaki remember the time when Mother disappeared. Nanaki thinks that is definitely not weakness. After all, if Nanaki doesn’t think about it, Nanaki will forget it. About when Mother was in this world.

Ah, Nanaki really hates being alone.

The estate is right there. Tomorrow let’s apologise to a lot of people. To master, to head butler Ridolf, to Shiel-sama. Because it is happiness to have people to apologise to. Because that means Nanaki is not alone.

“So tattered.”

————that’s no good, master.

“I have returned, my master.”
“Is it over?”
“No, the same day will likely come again. But I————“

Even so, I want to stay by your side. Because I vowed to go with you that day.

“Hurry up and sleep. Tomorrow is going to be tough.”

Master interrupted Nanaki’s words and went back inside.

Thank you very much, good master. For promising a tomorrow. Nanaki shall repay this debt. Since master wishes it, Nanaki will stay by his side without reservations.

Mother, I think today, I will see a dream of everyone.

Of my master and head butler Ridolf, of Envy, Silver, Salia and Raicou. And a dream of Friend who was injured for Nanaki. Nanaki thinks that is definitely a dream of happiness. Nanaki shall report to Mother again on another day.

Good night, Mother.

the end

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No! Envy shall not be killed off! Envy is Hecate’s second fav character in this series! Envy 4eva!

(1st is ofc Nanaki~)

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srsly though, if she really got killed off, I would be very depressed

Edit(18/12/2017): Best onee-sama

Reformatted(11/8/2018)

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